。。离开。。

我真的不知道我自己做错了什么？
平息了几天，事情又来了。。
我还以为事情告一段落了，可以很安心的度日，
哪知道今天又来和我吵，说我针对她的女儿。
拜托，我已经随着她喜欢的走了，
我还有错吗？到底是谁针对谁？
我这样也不行，那样也不行，到底要我怎样？
三头两天就找件事情来骂，来吵。。
我真不知道这样的日子要到几时才会结束？
为什么就不能给我一个平静的日子？
为什么不能在我要回去前让我平静，开心的过呢？
难道这样对我真的公平吗？对我合理吗？
从我开始来到这里，我就不断的在忍，在退后，
但人的忍耐力是有限的，当忍到无可奈何时，迟早会爆发的
一直到今天，我的心情从没有好过，
对同事，对学生，对生意上的人，
我要装成若无其事，很开心的样子，
其实我心很痛，又有谁知道？
我的心情又有谁了解？
又有谁能愿意借我耳朵听我诉说？
没有，就只能我自己一个人承担
我真的希望他能快点回来，但我想我等不到了
坦白说，我又不是他的谁，我也没那个资格
或许因为这几次的事情后，让我看透了
也让我了解到，我也是时候离开了，
也许我的离开对他和我都好。
我了解他夹在两个女人的中间很难做人，
所以我想我离开会比较好。

Helpless....

Until today I still worry for many things..
I don't know when it can end?
I wish it can end in early and let me have a fine day..
I don't know what she want again?
Everyday just act in innocent and selfish..
Never think of other people feeling..
I really don't know what to do..
I told him that I will choose to leave and resign..
Just i can understand that, he is very difficult to do too..
Becoz he always be a middle person between us..
Becoz I love him, so i choose to leave and let him free..
Love one person, is let him free and happy..
I also feel sorry on him.. I know he is worry and busy in Australia
He is busy running his business.. He suppose have to keep concentrate on it..
But i still sms him to tell him that, I choose resign and leave here..
Since she hate me so much and don't like me, then i better go..
Working in here, i also not feel happy and worry always..
So i better choose the place that really can make me happy..
I don't think that I go out can't find the other job..
So i sms him that, next week i will go back my sweet hometown
and before i leave, i will arrange everything and leave here..
I know after i say this, make him feel very unhappy..
But i don't know what can i do any more..
I think this is the only method that i can do..
Everyday i scare the new day come..
Becoz i don't know what will happen on the next day..
And i also don't know what i need to face on the following day..
I just know i'm full of scare in every day..
I really hope he can come back early as soon as possible..
In this moment, i really need him very much..
He promise me before, no matter wat happen..
he will help me to settle it all.. he will let me feel comfortable and happy..
Dear.. can u come back early? can u settle all ur business early?
Dear... i really need u at this moment.. I'm helpless and need ur help..

Hurt..

He went to Australia one month already, still not yet back..
In this few days, many things happen..
His wife come and just scold me.. I really don't know what i had done wrong?
She suddenly say i stolen money, and say i'm not a good worker and etc
What she say is really rude and hurt, very innocent..
She ask me to give her my cheque book, i give her.
She ask me to take out the bank statement, i give her Oct only
Nov i not yet get, but she not believe, what to do?
I told her the pervious check book he had taken it and not in my hand,
she not believe too, what can i do?
No matter what i say she not believe then better don't ask.
I really sad and hate this all happen.
I told him, if i really give then back luck then i better leave
She can find one to replace me, and i will leave this company
In very before, i know she don't like me without any resason
So i try to run away and avoid to meet her
I hope can avoid the unhappy thing, but who know
it still will happen.. nobody can avoid it..
I really hope he can come back early
So that i have someone support me here
If he is here, he can settle this kind of happen
But now he not here, i need to face it alone
I really scare and don't know what to do
I scare to face tomorow, because i don't know what will happen
Even i wish he can back early, but just hope only
He can't back early, he still have business running there
Right now, i really scare of Monday
I don't know how to face her any more
I need someone support me, understand me or concern me
But it seem won't happen on me
Why? WHy? WHY?
That really unfair for me..