Feeling..

This recently my mood is very bad...
But when i face the people, i show in fine..
I don't know my decision is right or wrong..
Maybe start from the beginning i can't accept him..
Maybe i'm really is not a good partner..
I feel jealous always..
He told me that, he is very busy running his business..
But most of the time, he is together with his family..
He din't tell me the truth always..
Sometimes i also need his help..
But he never care and never listen to me..
He promise me many things..
But at the end never come true..
I wish he can spend more time with me..
Even just a very very short time..
But he never do that..
The time for us is more less than before..
We very seldom meet each other..
Maybe very soon we can't meet each other anymore..
I also hate myself..
WHY??
The time is changing..
The person also changing..
The life is changing too..
My heart also changing..
I really hope i can love him forever..
But the time is not allowed..
He is not belongs to me..
He is belonging to somebody..
I also wish can find one single man..
But my heart feel sorry to him when i do that..
No matter how..
That all are my false..
I wish myself can put down everythings..
I wish i can do that..
I pray to do that..
I will try my best to do that..
I really wish got someone is really..
Love me more, care me more..