Helpless....

Until today I still worry for many things..
I don't know when it can end?
I wish it can end in early and let me have a fine day..
I don't know what she want again?
Everyday just act in innocent and selfish..
Never think of other people feeling..
I really don't know what to do..
I told him that I will choose to leave and resign..
Just i can understand that, he is very difficult to do too..
Becoz he always be a middle person between us..
Becoz I love him, so i choose to leave and let him free..
Love one person, is let him free and happy..
I also feel sorry on him.. I know he is worry and busy in Australia
He is busy running his business.. He suppose have to keep concentrate on it..
But i still sms him to tell him that, I choose resign and leave here..
Since she hate me so much and don't like me, then i better go..
Working in here, i also not feel happy and worry always..
So i better choose the place that really can make me happy..
I don't think that I go out can't find the other job..
So i sms him that, next week i will go back my sweet hometown
and before i leave, i will arrange everything and leave here..
I know after i say this, make him feel very unhappy..
But i don't know what can i do any more..
I think this is the only method that i can do..
Everyday i scare the new day come..
Becoz i don't know what will happen on the next day..
And i also don't know what i need to face on the following day..
I just know i'm full of scare in every day..
I really hope he can come back early as soon as possible..
In this moment, i really need him very much..
He promise me before, no matter wat happen..
he will help me to settle it all.. he will let me feel comfortable and happy..
Dear.. can u come back early? can u settle all ur business early?
Dear... i really need u at this moment.. I'm helpless and need ur help..