Give up??

He is outstating this few days..
In between this time, i think of many and many..
I thought to give up this relationship..
I feel myself very sad and feel very hurt..
Last few days i getting sick and i call him..
I just wish to hear his sound during i sick and when i alone..
Before sleep i wish to hear his sound so that can sleep nicely..
But every time when i call him, he sound like not willing to talk with me..
Sometimes he sound like rushing to put down the call..
Or he must got many excuse to ask me end the call..
That give me bad feeling..and i really just can cry..
I can't understand why he treat me like that?
He never call me, and he also never miss me..
Just myself is too stupid..
When he message me or when he call me..
He just talked about business with me and ask me to done the work..
Now he has not enough money to use over there..
He just sms me ask me to call him..
And he ask me to bank in the money for him to use..
It let me feel that, he together with me just because..
When he need help, he will find me..
When he need money, he always ask me to think of method
or ask me to borrow him money..
But when i need money, when i ask him about money..
He must give the black face for me and always tell me he has no money..
Sometimes i really can't understand why he don't ask his wife to give money?
Why he don't ask his wife to think the method for him?
Sometime it make me feel that..
I have no seat in his heart..
But when he need help, he will find me first..
Sometimes i really think to give up and end of this kind relationship..
Think is easy, but not easy to do it..
I had together with him one year already..
In this one year.. He treat me nice?
I really don't know he treat me nice or not?
Honestly, i wish he can love me and care me more..
But most of the time, he never care about my feeling..
I know his family is more important than me..
I really just hope he can keep his promise..
Before i come here, he give me many promises..
But until now, he never do it..
I just wish he can have more time together with me..
If just a short while, that is ok for me already..
I just wish to have lunch, dinner or breakfast with him only..
But most of the time, he din't give to me..
He spend his more time together with his family..
I'm just a spay tyre for him..
When he need me, he will find me..